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Quiet But Not Idle

Hello, Hello, Hello

I hope and pray this post finds you all well and growing. I have not written a blog in over a year. I just lost my motivation and drive to continue with my whole goals and dreams with my website. I continued to create and work on me throughout. My benefit was that I did not drop into a depression during the season change. It was the best Winter I have experienced in some time. I felt the change and allowed my body to feel the change and know that when the darkness comes it means we are just getting rest for the new year. Winter Solstice is the what starts the New Year for Native Americans to welcome the sun back as the days start to get longer.

I am not real sure why I didn’t come and stay in touch. Seems I just got a block. Or maybe cold feet. I did continue to grow and heal while I was MIA. I actually did well until I decided to stop my medication in July. I was taking a muscle relaxer to help me relax. I weaned myself off and thought I was fine. In 3 months I was in some pretty serious pain throughout my back and hips. My body is not getting the message that everything is fine and I am not in danger. It is in constant fight or flight mode and can’t relax.

So I went to see a chiropractor and did some Bio Feed Back. I have dealt with the pain once again and now have to bring my mental health into check. It’s time to identify the source and work through it.

When healing from PTSD and working on my mental health my body can go misunderstood unless I stay in an awareness of myself to recognize the problem. Fortunately I have that ability and the support I need to work it out. I know that the issue is that my body is always going into the fight or flight mode no matter what is happening (good or bad). I have kind of a emotional confusion. I will need to go in and see what the little demons are 🤣 so I can get rid of them.

As the battle continues I have been able to still enjoy and recognize all the blessings in my life. I have done some beautiful work and sold several ribbon skirts with machine embroidery thread painting. I created an Etsy Shop and sold my skirts, patterns and kits.

I accepted a Commissioned order from the National Button Society to make 500 beaded buttons for their 2023 conference. I still wonder what made me say yes, but I did. I contracted to have them finished by at least September 2022. I designed 4 types of buttons and they ordered 125 of each button design. The designs are to represent the Plateau Tribes of North Idaho beadwork. Wow what an order. Well I did and now to complete them.

I have completed 125 of the Bear Paw design. This design was made from a picture of petroglyphs writings on walls somewhere in Idaho. They were provided by members of the Society and I made the designs work on the 1 1/2″ buttons.

I am now working on design number 2. I have almost completed them. the Holidays set me back a few weeks but I hope to get back on track before the end of January.

I finished 100 yesterday. I should finish within the next week. Kind of exciting. I thought I would be sick of them and want to give up but the more I do, the more motivated I get. I hope to be finished with all 500 by July 2022. I will be ready to be finished.

I did continue to add videos to my YouTube Channel but nothing consistent enough to make me feel good about it. I think I could up my game there. 😉

My Etsy shop did very well through the holiday season and now I need to replenish and focus. I want to put more patterns and kits in. I always want to make the item so I can photograph the process and then I am able to provide a PDF of the instructions to make it. I have done Moss Bags and also want to do Ribbon Shirts for children.

I have been able to create a FaceBook group where I can share and teach with the members. I provide an online beading circle session every Sunday that has not only become a healing and motivator to me but it provides a good environment for others wanting the same thing.

I added a new page here on the site with an option to join my Tribe. Just an avenue for me to reach out to those interested in keeping in touch without having to go to those other places. Also I would love to get feedback from you on what you want to have access to or learn about. The only “stupid” question is the one not asked.

Things did not stay idle in my world I just stepped back. I hope that your time was well spent and blessed. I will continue to heal and grow and will do my best to come back often to check in. Thank you for hanging in there and being patient with me.





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  1. Beautiful! I found your beaded card holder on YouTube and was so soothed by your voice. I have only started to bead and will be watching and following all that you do.

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