Renewing the Mind

Life is made to be lived, enjoyed and treasured not run from. It is a battle to come back from the dark. It takes all my strength to rediscover what the darkness stole. I am though. I am actually seeing what is possible and want to continue to discover myself again. It actually allowing me to see and allow the person I was even before the childhood trauma.

I took part in a local Flea Market on Saturday. It was not financially successful but gave me the safe and vulnerable chance to be out in the community. I did choose to go to one that I don’t know anyone but it let me experience being around people in a small dose and a comfortable environment. It was a good thing and gets me ready for the next step of my own Craft Fair. I will have a few more beading classes before than that also give me the chance to put myself back out there and practice my skills of living.

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The main thing that is taking place is allowing myself to be okay when someone around me or the situation I am in triggers me. I can now just be okay and know that I do not have to react with fear, anger, and bitterness that is automatic from the past survival mode. I am realizing who I am and remembering who I am when I am triggered is how I can claim back my life.

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My world is still a struggle but the best part about it is it is a choice I make to be better.

I am beginning to get sales and orders online and my business is getting better. I am able to manage it and want to continue to get myself up and motivated to continue. I did get an amazing video done last week for Rock Your Mocs. I made myself a pair of moccasins for the first time in about 30 years. I think I like me and will continue.

Thanks for stopping by and wish you a wonderful week.

Frances

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