When I decided to get back to my website, I sat down at my computer and started reading the last posts I had made before I closed it down in 2023. It was my birthday week 2 years ago, and there was a post that I had not published. I don’t remember why I never published it because it was actually a nice post about all the good that was happening in my life, so I published it today (1/2026). Then I opened up the next post to start again. I needed to come up with a title for my blog and went blank. I couldn’t find the words to convey what the last 2 years have been like and how I feel right now.
I was doing great within myself. Learning and growing with an inner strength I worked hard to obtain. I still had struggles with my son, and dealing with the recent Residential Rehabilitation company still not listening to what he needed. I had made the decision that maybe I would go back to school and get my Master’s Degree. I had applied but was told that I didn’t make it in 2022. In 2023, they said they would take me into the last Advanced Standing Program at Boise State University. What an accomplishment and opportunity for me. I took it.
This meant focused hard work for a year. 7-week semesters and a challenge I wanted to take, even though the anxiety and fear were waiting in the back. My husband’s health had been failing, and he refused to take his medication or go see the doctor. It’s hard when you watch your loved ones give up, and there is nothing you can do. On the morning that I was to start my Master’s program, my husband didn’t get up to take care of the dogs as normal. When I went to check on him, he had passed away in the night. I knew he was struggling, but never expected that.
Well, needless to say, I did not start my program that day. As I sat processing my grief, I decided that I had an opportunity that I had always dreamed of already in the works. My husband always gave me whatever I wanted, and he had agreed to this, too. I started my Master’s a week late, but was determined to make it work. I focused myself and obtained my Master’s Degree in a year.
I made it through the process, and the day that I submitted my final assignment to complete my studies for graduation, I received a call from the Res Hab company taking care of my son. When they had gone to check on him in the morning, they found that he had passed away in his sleep. In a year’s span, I lost my husband and my son.
So much has happened since then, and my healing journey has not only been my focus but my greatest success. I have had some difficulty with this post, and it took me all week to write it. I have so much more to share with anyone interested, so for now, I am letting you know I am back. I want to share all that I have done and all that I have learned, and I would be honored and grateful if you decided to stay and support.
